About the title: KARANDASH means PENCIL. But also name of a RUSSIAN CLOWN. In my poems I invite the reader to reflect on existence. Growth and the desire for loyalty and strength are central. I'm researching: 'I hope, expectation and the pursuit of a grip'. I'm researching: 'Saying goodbye, the memories of loved ones and processing loss'. The memories of beloved pets also get a place. But I would also like to describe the experience of novelty, regret and the search for beauty and security in later life. So my backyard becomes a paradise and even mosquitoes are viewed with humor.